Why not now?

In programming, much like life, everyone has that moment when we really want to work on a project or we really want that promotion/job, and for whatever reason it just doesn't happen.  This can take its toll on our ego and make us question our role.  I'd ask you to steal yourself from moments like these and continue to look forward.  Don't let missed opportunities get you down.  There will be other projects, other jobs, other opportunities.  Just keep coding!